uh-HUH;
DANG!!so full now.bloated liao luh.
dinner sucked.and my life sucks.
stress-filled.lols.
today went to njc with constance,
erv and haoqing.the sch so wulu.
wasted lyk so much time walking luh.
too bad i was damn broke.
loads of thanks to erv fer paying
fer my neoprints.gosh.i lost my specs.
and who knows where?
constance,changed alot.
i din't recognise her at all.
sigh.i am really darn broke liao.
the money in my wallet is owe ppl money de luh
and haoqing owes me 50cents-.-DORTS>
ltr,went to watch wild hogs with em.
still can luh.but i wanna watch freedom writers
and 200 pounds of beauty!!too bad can't make it.
sigh,it'll be cool fer us to go back fhps
then ask fer testi together!!
lols,..i so lousy.even erv n hq chance higher than me
DIE liao loh.they all so pro de.iq and eq sure higher
than me de!!hq's excuse to go ther,..damn lame.
but i guess mine is too.sigh.gosh.
i didn't ask a lame question luh.
so i need a proper reply.not a lame reply.
you get that?GANHAOQING!!??!!
time;6:17 AM
uh-HUH;
did it just come because of affinity
or because they really needed me?
gosh,.. everythings getting dashed.
stripped out of my life.
non-existence.
the fear,the outrage,the hardship/
WTH.
sigh.tiramisu.it didn't make me happier today.
i stuffed it into the fridge after eating half.
choir is,..getting outta hand liaox.
sigh,..falling apart again,.?everything's drowning.
i relaly wanna know why IT happened and HOW it
came to me&and WHY it had to be me.
i can endure no more.i have no more confidence.
since when were they nice ppl?just a front bah.
i wanna kill myself.
to drown myself.
to over exhaust.
because of the tiredness.
i've had enough.
really enough.
i dont need more of those.
thankyou very much.
im breaking.
time;1:23 AM
uh-HUH;
uh-HUH;
yesterdays.x
im really depressed man.
i just saw something,which made me wanna cry.
not boogie.cry.
what should i do now?
hit the wall and kill myself?
stay depressed?
or fill myself with hatred?
i starting to stare into space and really wonder.
im floating,..my spirits flown out of me.
its left.will it return?i guess at least not for a long
long time.what is wrong??i wanna know.
im dying for an answer and a reason.
my LORD.please.let things work out.
please let everything be rite.
help me hold my future,securely,safely.
tears are starting to well up in my eyes;
when they flow;
i will watch;
when i cry;
i will let it all out;
it will all go;
it will all be flushed away;
the hurt;
the grief;
the betrayal.
what else could i say?
what does my future hold?
i desperately need an answer.
someone,tell me.
sigh,thanks alot,..for letting me drink them away,
but its back again.this feeling.
time;3:20 AM
since i posted anything up here liao larh,..
gosh,.. the chocolate,.. was ok,.but the jolly
shandy was,..DIE>addictive luhh,..
its tastes a lil' like beer,..and the lemon,..LOL!!
sigh,.. internal conflicts,..
this will all end soon,..
JOLLYSHANDY!!JOLLYSHANDY!!
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JOLLYSHANDY!!JOLLYSHANDY!!
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sigh,..TATAS!!*
open your heart<3
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